Sunday, November 13, 2011

Answered prayer and various related exerpts from Book 1 of Ten Talents

No editing and revision has taken place yet, so ya, there's a lot of errors I'm sure.


From chapter one: A Witness of the Word, discussing the power and importance of the pure Word of God from multiple aspects.


I had to leave quickly, having promised another friend, Eve, I'd join her at a church she had just started attending. She had gone through many difficulties living a destructive life and wanted to encourage her in a healthier one.
Josh asked what church I would be going to, then expressed concerns when I told him. It was a Jehovah's Witness church. He told me they were different, that they are not Christians. I assured him not to worry, if it's not the Bible, it's not real and I had been walking out of churches for years with no regrets where the Bible was not taught.
When I got there everything seemed very stiff and formal. I kept an open mind however, being there in support of a friend. The sermon was decidedly different than that of the prior service I had attended, it was a dissertation of moral ideas with a few partial verses mixed in and misused. It was very much like listening to a college professor reading his thesis on a given subject before his students.
After service I spoke with my friend, telling her about the other church I attended earlier in the day. I expressed my concerns about the lack of scripture in the message and how the partial scriptures given were misused. I opened my Bible and showed her the scriptures mentioned an how they related to surrounding texts (which I could not have done, nor would I have noticed the discrepancies without personal knowledge from reading the whole Bible myself).
Then I explained how the other church read and explained the Bible. She remained unconvinced and am sorry to say continued on in a destructive life she would let no one help her out of, despite a growing number of close friends who became Christians and often offered help, love, guidance and gospel. Last I heard she had rejected all of her old friends, married into an abusive, drug filled relationship with a guy she had placed multiple restraining orders against, was wasting away in her drug use and her daughter was constantly running away and at odds receiving physical and suspected other abuse from her step-dad.


From chapter two: Your patient perseverance and power in prayer.  I assume its content is self-evidently, if not its scope.

Prayer Warfare

Sometime my prayers are authoritative and combative, either for myself or others. Recently I was Thinking about the woman, Eve, I wrote of in the previous chapter, who had distanced herself from her friends to disappear into the depths of a tumultuous life.
I had dreamed about her many years ago, shortly before I had seen her last. In the dream she stood at a distance and turned away with a sense of knowing and accepted regret for her rejection of better, if not easier, choices. When she had turned away there appeared a demon about ten feet away, between us. It was about three and a half feet tall, standing with a malicious hunch; if it stood unnaturally strait it may have topped five and one quarter feet. It's appearance was much like a gremlin, from that old movie, but with a sinuous, muscular body, with taunt skin, smooth and black like glossy oil. It wore only a wicked, hungry grin and empty obsidian eyes, glinting with the depraved lust for the havoc it was turning to wreak as my lost friend abandoned the love and protection of her friends. Its name was Destroyer.
I will not venture to guess at the spiritual reality of the dream. The last report on the condition of her life by those who saw her last is reality enough.

These thoughts lead me to combative prayer for my friend, prayers of command. Naming Destroyer, I issued command in prayer, the Lord rebuke him. In a form of prayer I spoke at him in commands to depart from her life, made him aware I would continue to pray against him and issue commands through the name and authority of the Lord Jesus Christ. I spoke the the identity of Christ as Son and sinless, the work of Christ as overcoming death, the authority of Christ over all creation, powers and principalities, the will of Christ that all would repent, be forgiven and live, and the power of Christ to forgive and sanctify and keep all who are His. I continued in many similar prayers and variations of prayers, expanding them to any demons affecting any of her family during my break at work, discontinuing my prayers to resume work with the promise to Destroyer and its fellow demons I would return in prayer to torment them out of her life. A promise I kept the next break, remembering Matthew 12:43-45 and continue to remember.
Even as you read this I ask you to join in and consider others in your life you may pray for in this way.
And as it is written that the gates of Hades shall not prevail against confessions of Christ by believers in faith we; therefore, are meant to attack. (Reference: Matthew 16:16-18) For no offensive is led by the charge of a gate. Hell is on its heels, trembling behind its defenses, and like Jericho, is read to crumble at our shout in faith of our God. Let us be about our Fathers business of declaring war on hell and emptying it of its occupants while they still have breath to live.


Possible post script attatchment: Answered Prayer, in it tentative entirety.

It is Sunday, November 13, 2011.

Having served as a teacher's aid for the five and six year old children during the early service I attended the later. Inside the sanctuary I saw a familiar face. I came down from the balcony to the ground floor, to the front of the church for a closer look, but wasn't sure, having not seen them in six years.
With worship starting I went back up top but occasionally noted the figure below. When she raised her hand in song I realized I had not been mistaken by the posture she held it in. During the intermission of introductory announcements to please keep your seats once the message had begun and to turn cell phones to silent to avoid distraction I made my way back down and excused my way to the center of the row my long absent friend Eve was seated.
After surprised hellos and hasty hugs I departed with a promise I would come finder her afterward and returned to my seat. The service ended and my friend got up and began moving toward the exit at the end of the first of two closing songs. Moving down to the lobby I met her with a hug, rehashing our surprise and offered an invitation for lunch to catch up, which she welcomed with pleasure.
Interrupting the thought, she told me she needed to find the red box, a near by usher directed her to one, indicating she could put her tithes and offerings in it (which is how our church accommodates offerings). “No,” she amended, “I raised my hand.”
“Oh!” the usher exclaimed with pleasure, “the red tent for new believers!” He motioned the direction as I escorted her to receive a Bible and prayer to receive Christ as her Lord and Savior.

Past our preliminary life updates, at lunch, Eve asked what I'd been up to. With a few sentences I caught her up-to-date with my continuance and progression of faith then mentioned in passing I was writing a book. Having asked what it was about I explained its basic premise and a the topic of its chapters than casually added: as a matter of fact, you're in it.
“Uh oh! Where am I at? The sinner chapter?
“No, the Word chapter.” I explained that one of the last times I had seen her was after we went to the Jehovah's Witness church and I was trying to explain the difference between their scriptures and the Bible, but didn't do a very good job, not knowing it well enough yet.
While speaking to her a thought was brewing in my mind, but seeming a little outlandish, but kept it in my heart. I went on to tell her that the last time I'd seen her she had rejected me and two other close friends of Christian faith continuing as a Jehovah's Witness, living a destructive and abusive life.
I paused for a few moments, and saw that she knew I was not condemning or accusing her. The thought pressed upon my mind, and as I considered her I believed she would receive what was on my heart, though to what end I did not know.

“I had a dream about you back then...”
“Really?..” She waited with a tone ready to receive words to consider.
“We stood facing each other at a distance and you turned to walk away. Between us was a small black figure...”
She interrupted with a sharp intake of breath, then lowered her hand. “I know where you're going with this! M, sorry,. Continue..” she gestured.
“There was a small black figure between us... it was like a gremlin, off the old movie...” I pause as if to ask of understanding.
“Ya, I remember.” A quick nod encouraged me to continue with anticipation.
“Its skin was black,” a sudden surge of emotion threatened to choke my words from me, “like obsidian. It had piercing blue eyes, and a glint of a smile.”
My tear silenced me for the space of a breath and thought I heard her ask what it had told me. Only able to hoarsely whisper through my emotion and tears, being reflected in her own eyes, I answered her. “It told me: 'She's mine now, and you can't stop me.”
“Its name was Destroyer,” I added, relieving the last of my struggle through the choking emotions.

Taking a moment to breath and collect her thought's she told me that she also had had dreams. There was a small dark figure behind her and a dark fog around it. “I couldn't tell if I was being chased by it or if it was following me. I thought it might have been me when I was a little girl and was following God, the ground was white where I was walking. I thought I was in heaven.”
At her mention of the fog I added other remembered details. “When we were standing, in the dream, it seemed like you were on a road or a bridge, there was a dark gray fog on either side of the road, giving me the impression of a bridge. There was fog around the figure, but not as much near him.”
“So what do you think it means?”
With our thought I spoke the only words I knew. “It's gone now, you're free to put your foot where you please. It's your choice now.”

Having recomposed ourselves I told her that about three months ago that dream came into my head, I figured there was a reason it came to mind so I started praying for her and against Destroyer. “Wow,” she said with a shake of her head, “the last three months have been... well, they've been hell.”

She went on to tell me that a friend had invited her to church several time and she'd been wanting to check it out, but always had something come up or she wouldn't hear the alarm or press the wrong button. She had prayed the night before telling God if He wanted her to go, to wake her up. Then before she went to bed she prayed to hear her alarm clock.
She didn't tell me whether she heard the alarm clock but God definitely answered her first prayer. She woke up at five in the morning “bright eyed and bushy tailed”, six hours before service started, and still was nine hours later.
Arriving at the church she prayed, if this was where God wanted her that she would feel comfortable and welcome, and help her connect with others in the church. She didn't know where to go and was surprised to have a greeter approach her and warmly introduce herself, pointing out the women’s bathroom and entrance to the sanctuary. She thanked her with a genuine gratitude and made her way inside, “impressed she had been acknowledged”. While she was looking around she was approached yet again. This greeter reached out, asking if she was new here. Eve responded in a light hearted manner: “why does it show?” With that she was assured by the kindness of a warm welcome.
She said message spoke directly into the current situation of her life, it was not until Pastor Levi Lusko told the people they could lower their hands after the invitation that she realized he was speaking to her, it having being raised unconsciously. When she went to the red booth to get her Bible she told the woman some of what was taking place in her life and asked for prayer. Providing more than had been asked for, the woman shared some of her life, relating to my friend and prayed for her.
And happened to run across an old friend for good measure

Reflecting upon her perception of the fog and the creature and mine, I have come to a tentative conclusion about their differences, which I do not expect to change. To her the figure was shrouded and mysterious, while her surroundings seemed clear and wonderful. I; however, could see the figure clearly, while the path she had chosen was surrounded but fog.
I believe my faith in Christ allowed me to see clearly while her faith in a false Christ blinded her eyes to the the deceiver and was caught up in his illusion. My belief is bolstered by the inflection on the word “thought”, when she said, “she thought she was in heaven”. Said as if to imply she had been disillusioned long ago of any such false notion.

You may notice two different accounts of eye color. The creature's eyes were black, but I met a man once who worked at a book store for the occult, Wicca and the like, who had a calm and steady void in his piercing, pale blue eyes. I felt, from the very first instant I saw the man he was entirely, contentedly and willfully demon possessed, and his were not a man's eyes at all.
I believe that my mind cross referenced the two in the moment.

I have felt it important to leave all prior references to Eve in tact and unaltered other than necessary spelling and grammar editing and revision to serve, what I believe, to be a Spirit inspired, living testament.
May the prayers your prayer for her at that time be heard by God as prayers for you own lost and wayward friends and loved ones, and as the prayers for the lost and wayward who are dear to the heart's of all others who had, are and will pray as you did. And with the same vast scope of prayer and power and ability of God please pray for Eve that she will continue steadfastly in the faith of our Lord Jesus Christ, even into eternity, and my the Lord not only hear these prayers as for our friends and loved ones and those of them who join us in this prayer, but may God hear these prayers of if prayed four our own behalf, for you, and for me also.
Not only do I trust the Lord to forgive my presumption to multiple a single prayer, by faith into millions or perhaps billions, I believe He favors it, delighting in our boast in His ability.

God bless you and be with you all, friend, family and loved ones alike. Amen.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Cool inspirations from the weeks Bible readings

Lk 7:32-34 In many ways the world has changed little; it still looks on at the children of God. To some it say: “You are naive, puritanical, and narrow minded,” yet to others: “A sham and a hypocrite, you're just like the rest of us,” when we stumble. I asked a person once who accused Christians of hypocrisy how we could do so when by definition of Christendom one must first confess themselves a sinner; a puzzled, thoughtful look and respectful nod of reflection were his answer.

Lk 8:16-18 How well this speaks of salvation. While with patience and diligent perseverance one may grow from quietness to comfort in sharing the hope and Salvation of Gods' love, those who are ashamed of it; though they may for a time appear on Sundays to be saved, may indeed find that their salvation was in fact merely the delusion of a deceitful heart. Press into God, into His Word, search Him earnestly until you yourself are sure of your love, gratefulness and desire for Him. Then press in some more for the Joy and excitement of what He will do or teach you next in life! You're not too new or too tenured to start today.

Lk 8:25 Wow! What a striking, poignant question. Where is your faith? As relevant today as ever. Your job, your 401k, your health, your fortunate circumstance, your goodness... where is your faith? Hopefully right there with you, have you invited Him to be?

Lk 24:13-15 May we be found so doing when we should be happened upon and by so perhaps entertain angels (Hebrews 13:2)

Lk 24:50,51 Could this be the same location of His return? Zechariah14:1-7, can you say Aloha!?

Jn 1:30 “dove” is also the meaning of the name Jonah, perhaps perhaps adding more significance to the statement: “no sign will be given except the sign of Jonah the prophet”. (Luke 11:29)

Jn 1:45 Do you have honest questions about the legitimacy of Christ the Messiah? He does not take offense, ask and it will be given, knock and understanding will be opened to you. Christ does not take offense to your question, He commends it! Be real with Christ, He will certainly be real with you.

Jn 2:10 The same is true of life and law; born in sin and by grace through Christ raised in the newness of eternal life, and the Mosaic law condemned man in his sins, the consummation of the commandments set us at liberty through the law of love.

Jn 4:14 We have within us as the craving for more; more of what we value. When we value possessions, sex, or stature we need to give more of our selves to obtain more of what we value, but when it is the plurality of God we desire we are blessed with an un-diminishable resource like no other, an unlimited abundance available without cost, so while we still continue drinking in more of Him we are not left wanting; the beauty of the Beatitude truth: Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, For they shall be filled. (Mt 5:6; Isaiah 55:1)

Friday, January 7, 2011

Lk 4:18,19 With the fulfillment of of this very prophesy Jesus answers John's question: if Christ is the coming one. Awesome cross reference: Lk 7:22 Jesus answered and said to them, “Go and tell John the things you have seen and heard: that the blind see, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, the poor have the gospel preached to them.

Lk 4:43 Great motto for any church to model, kudos to Skull Church for doing just that!

Lk 6 20-23 An echo from the past: Psalm 34:18 The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

A Harvesters' Heart: Mk 4:35-41 Prophetically foretold? Psalm 107:28,29...

A Harvesters' Heart: Mk 4:35-41 Prophetically foretold? Psalm 107:28,29...: "Mk 4:35-41 Prophetically foretold? Psalm 107:28,29 Then they cry out to the LORD in their trouble, And He brings them out of their distresse..."
Mk 4:35-41 Prophetically foretold? Psalm 107:28,29 Then they cry out to the LORD in their trouble, And He brings them out of their distresses. He calms the storm, So that its waves are still.
Mk 3:27 Even as Christ came casting out demons, Satan powerless to stop Him, so too Christ has come into our lives casting out sins; and again there will be a day when Christ comes again and He will cast out Satan himself, binding him in the bottomless pit, so too a day is coming when even our temptation will be cast from us; and yet again a day is coming when Satan will be damned forever, cursed for eternity in the lake of fire and brimstone and all thing will be made anew absent the stain of sin and tarnish of temptation, so too the day will come when we are resurrected in the newness of life, to awake in the likeness of Christ, in the perfection of love through the consummation of the Holy Spirit, to the glory and joy of God. Oh, what a day.. and what sweet joyful longing, to wake in the newness of life and the likeness of Christ. Amen!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Mt 26:68 in this the silence of Christ speaks volumes of truth, withholding the accusation that could be so justly made, He did not come to condemn the world, but that through Him it might be saved.
The more I come to know and have revealed to me the incessant nature of my sinful self, my discouraging susceptibility to failure and temptation the more precious each drop of blood Christ shed for this wretched sinner proves true; each a gem of great price, every drop a ruby of unsearchable worth; for which, I am eternally grateful and increasingly humbled.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Thoughts for the day

Mt 10:24-26 Great words to minister to the hearts of the discouraged and cast of by men, by both friend and family for the Gospels sake!

Mt 10:27 God teaches us in our pains and guides us in our trials to make us ministers for His fame to the wounded of this world. Let us be faithful and bold to share the glory of Gods love given to all as it is revealed to us; the administered administering ministry, the taught teaching the teachable, sharing the wisdom shown us by God through His Word, given freely and freely given.

Mt 12:43-45 Accepting Christ as savior, but not spending ample time in the Word weekly, if not daily, is like going to war in your pajamas with a pillow then wondering why your bleeding in the mud and why God didn't protect you when He's given you the keys to the armory. This is as true for the seasoned Christian as the new.

Mt 15:25-28 What a great and humbling story, when you have stumbled and fallen, and feel a rotten failure, if we find the courage of heart in the weakness of our character to but humbly and honestly ask our Lord for even the dogs dues as we feel the weight of our unworthiness due to our inadequacies, He is faithful and... just to forgive and heal us. Therefor be humble, courageous, determined and faithful enough to seek Him, else dog or even child may go wanting..


A Harvesters' Heart (Revised)

A Harvesters' Heart:
Pain, Pleasure and Perspective

Seattle Harvest Crusade November 2010

Arriving in Seattle early beating feet in the streets of downtown Seattle a focused group of Fresh Life and Skull Church members took up their swords of evangelism in the heart of the lion's den, combating Hell from within its gates.
The sad, lonely and impoverished; the confused, eccentric and educated; tourists, businessmen, drug addicts and porn stars; from the decadent to the destitute we took up the truth of Gods word and gave it freely to all. Compelled by our compassion we persevered.
Fresh Lifers began reaching out to the lost the moment we set foot in Seattle. Our first day at Pikes Place seemed to be met with the most welcome and receptiveness.
In the midst of a sea of pain; hope and encouragement unveiled itself at unexpected times in unimagined ways.
On one occasion we met two men from a metal Christian band, Nine Lashes, there to record their album. They relayed the ministry behind their music, performing in High Schools encouraging godliness, while not unveiling their belief, or overstepping the schools boundaries.
The High School event promoted a local concert where they could unveil the full glory of Gods Word, and Salvation. The implications of divine appointment kindled excitement at the prospect of being reunited in the future as potential guest-artists of Skull Church.
Most encouraging were those receptive to the truth, willing to hear about Christ, three giving their lives to Christ on the spot.
Most often we were met with indifference and dismissal. People to busy with their own lives and elusive goals to be interrupted by God. We must have upset the Enemy, who was in active opposition the second day, we were met with scoffing, mockery and a shout of “Hail Satan!”.
Our third day was filled with heartache, joy and solace. At the U-district mall the weight of oppression made it very difficult to speak with people. The resentment of Gods Word was palpable in some.
We talked with a young porn actress who spoke of her life. The truth of Gods love and forgiveness through faith in Christ was revealed to her. She rejected, tears streaming down her face, knowing she had refused the truth yet afraid to muster the hope, too fearful it may be dashed to walk out of the open prison doors.
The Harvest event with Greg Laurie was a greater success than Key Arena owners anticipated, exceeding their projected attendance by thousands each night; the finale overwhelming Key capacity. Many gathered 'round televisions in the foyers, even so thousands were turned away at the entrance.
Strange emotions of pleasure at shocking success of the crusade and sorrow for the many lost that had been turned away danced within me.
Monday figures for the event were announced; 4,225 made decisions for Christ in the most un-churched city in America; many more ripening in our midst; future decisions of a great spiritual victory that continues to ripple throughout Seattle and its suburban expanse.
I found solace in the salvation of so many, though a shadow haunted my heart for those turned away; trying to digest the fruits of the trip, both bitter and sweet.
The morning message at Mars Hill was appropriate. Have faith; but faith is a verb of perpetual activity: like the dripping of a leaky faucet. Having faith is to have faith again and again: in sadness have faith, in doubt, confusion, pain and bitterness have faith, with a contrite spirit have faith, when you don't understand Gods plans... have faith.
And in meditation perspective is found.
Perhaps many lost were turned away in blessing, their absence causing sorrow for what they had missed, frustrated they were unable to participate. Perhaps God hinting of the rapture, encouraging them to come early, not reject the truth any longer, to accept Christ into their life before they are left behind, or are told: Be gone, for I never knew you.
I challenge you, look into the eyes of the lost, talk to them, listen to their stories, their lives, see the fears and despairs of their hearts... they need Him. How small a thing it is to share with them: an opportunity, a little bread of life, a little living water, a little Word of God? How small a thing to sacrifice: a little time, a little comfort, a little embarrassment over a little foolishness? But how great a reward? A soul, a friend, a family member lost, now found; an encourager in your time of sorrow, a helper in your time of need, a son or daughter of God praying for you in the Fathers' ear when to you He does not feel near.
How great a reward indeed? Of how much more do those who give receive?

A Harvesters' Heart

A Harvester's Heart:
Pain, Pleasure and Perspective

Seattle Harvest Crusade November 4-8, 2010

Arriving in Seattle early to beat feet in the streets of downtown Seattle a focused group of Fresh Life Church members took up their swords of evangelism in the very heart of the lion's den, combating Hell from within its gates.
The sad, lonely and impoverished; the confused, eccentric and educated; tourists, businessmen, drug addicts and porn stars; from the decadent to the destitute we took up the truth of Gods word and gave it freely to all we had the heart to share it with. And we stretched our selves, through pain and tears we pressed on. Compelled by our compassion we persevered.
Though most, if not all, of our Fresh Life team members started reaching out and sharing with the lost the moment we set foot in Seattle our first official day on the streets seemed to be met with the most welcome and receptiveness.
In the midst of a sea of pain; hope and encouragement would unveil its self at unexpected times in unimagined ways. We would occasionally meet follow Christians as we were approaching others and rather than say great, and pass on we would ask to pray for them, asking for any specific requests.
On one such occasion friends I was traveling with approached two men who turned out to be musical artists in a metal Christian band, Nine Lashes, who traveled to Seattle to record their album. They encouraged us as they relayed the ministry behind their music, traveling around the country to High Schools teaching abstinence from sex and drugs while playing Christian rock. They would carefully select their songs, singing messages encouraging godliness, while not unveiling their belief so as not to overstep the schools boundaries or their welcome.
The High School concert served as a platform to promote a local concert they would put on where they could unveil the full glory of Gods Word, Hope and Salvation in both lyrical and spoken message.
You could feel the excitement they felt at being used by God for the ministry they had been gifted with and being instruments of God being used to bring thousands to Christ.
The implications of divine appointment became increasingly evident as we explained the nature and structure of our Wednesday Skull Church service, and kindled excitement at the prospect of being reunited in the future as potential guest-artists of Skull Church.
But of most encouragement in our witnessing were those receptive to the truth, willing to hear about Christ, willing to go hear more at the Seattle Harvest Crusade, three of which gave their lives to Christ on the spot, praying to receive Him with our street witnessing team members.
Sadly these were the exception. Most often we were met with indifference and dismissal. People to busy with their own plans and striving after their ever-changing and elusive goals to be interrupted by God, much less a disciple of His.
By noon of our second day on the streets, after speaking with members of fellow Fresh Life witnessing teams, most concluded we must have done a good job our first day because the Enemy seemed to be upset and engaging in active opposition from the get-go of the second.
At times we were met with scoffing and mockery and even open enmity as one shouted with proclaiming fist raised high from a mob of friends “Hail Satan!”.
Urgent thoughts of the Satan proclaiming man later led me to prayer for him, that even as Elijah had pray for and proclaimed a drought in Israel so I prayed for drought in this mans life, binding Satan from him; that he would be devoid of joy, fulfillment and contentment of his desires; that if he takes pleasure from pain he would find only heath, if he found joy in destruction he could only find rejuvenation, and for the delight of hate he found only love, and for desire of death he would only find life; that death would flee from him, that he could not die until after he found Christ and that the profound change in him would bring life to others; that he would become a great and effective minister of Gods hope and love unto salvation.
Our third day was filled with heartache, joy and solace. We redirected our efforts from the Pikes Place Market area downtown to the U-Campus University mall district. The weight of oppression and rejection made it very difficult to speak with people. In truth I only spoke with about six or eight people that day, mental and spiritual opposition as tangible as the physical difficulty of pushing a car up a hill.
Cold. The resentment of Gods Word was palpable in some. Other than offering some feeble encouragements to fellow Christians I came across it seemed there was little prosperous done through me that day. The last forty five minutes of our witnessing time I spent reading the Bible in Barnes and Noble, leaving Harvest invitations in key places, praying for the posterity of the seed within, that they would find fertile hearts of receptive readers.
After rejoining the group I discovered there was an armature porn festival taking place in the area. One of our harvesters came across a young porn actress who spoke of her past and current life. As the truth of Gods love and the forgiveness of sins through faith in the Savior was revealed to her an invitation was given both to the festival and to receive Christ. The young actress returned the invitation, rejecting it with tears streaming down her face, knowing she had heard the truth of God but unwilling or unable to muster the hope or bound by the fear of having that hope dashed to walk out of the open doors of the cell imprisoning her life, her hope and her soul.
Later that night came the climax of the Harvest event. Friday and Saturday had been a greater success than Key Arena owners had expected, exceeding their expected attendance by thousands both nights, a work of God we were all pleased to take joy in. Many of us, myself included, were working as ushers.
It was not long before rows were becoming full and ushers were required to enforce the no seat saving policies of the Key Arena, unfortunately that was rarely met with understanding. About ten minutes before the event began the entire arena was filled to capacity and we were forced to turn people away, many still claiming seats for those not yet evidenced in attendance, but were adamant their friends were in the building.
Five minutes into the event, having already turned hundreds away, thought of the lost and despairing souls we had met on the streets caused my heart to ache knowing if they had convinced themselves to come, many would not have come early and may be being turned away even at that time.
Two groups in the section I was ushering remained staunch in their refusal to relinquish the eight remaining seats for those whom I had not yet seen evidence of. The exasperation of one pleading for the lost welled up within me. I watched many turned away who could have been the very souls we shared the truth of God's Word with and had felt some sense of the despair of their life, yearning to see them free.
Finally, giving voice to the silent struggles of my soul I approach members of the groups clinging resolutely to the unclaimed seats and asked if they were Christians. Yes!, they relied merrily. That's great, I congratulated. But amended: This is a concert for you, for someone else this could be their LIFE! I plead with exasperation, praying silently they could understand the significance and purpose of the event.
Having seen all we had seen, spoke and plead with all those we'd shared with, trying to drag souls from the pit of Hell, who were shaken, afraid to even dare to hope for fear of that hope being dashed, having struggled against the gates of despair, Hell and hopelessness for four days I was shocked and dumbfounded at the selfish insensitivity of Christians justifying the turning of the lost for the sake of a passing pleasure. If not for the shocked, consternation of my near speechless exasperation I would have cried. As it was I told them they had five minute to have their friends in their seats or I would give them to someone else.
Thankfully some remained in the halls, knowing there was no room in the stadium, yet content to watch on televisions placed about the arenas foyers. Even so thousands were turned away at the arena entrance. Strange emotions of pleasure at the unexpected, overwhelming success of the crusade and sorrow of the many potential lost that had been turned away mingled and danced within me.
The figures of the event were announced the following day; some 4,225 made decisions for Christ during the course of the crusade in one of the most un-churched areas in America, and many more were left thought-filled, ripening in our midst, perhaps future decisions as the ramifications of the spiritual victory continue to ripple throughout Seattle and its suburban expanse.
I found solace in the salvation of so many, though a shadow haunted my heart for those turned away. My stomach turned as I tried to digest the fruits of the trip, both bitter and sweet.
The message given earlier that morning at Mars Hill Church was appropriate in reflection, one particular theme ministered to my thoughts. Have faith. But understand the fullness of faiths meaning: a verb of perpetual activity, as the dripping of a leaky faucet continually drips, so too having faith is to have faith again and again: in sadness have faith, in doubt have faith, in confusion, pain and bitterness have faith, with a contrite spirit have faith, when you are blind to the workings, plans and understanding of Gods will... have faith.
And in meditation perspective is found.
As I reflected on those who had been turned away I recalled that God works all things for the good of those who love Him and foreknowing us all before He created us He already knows all who will love Him, even knowing fully all things from beginning to end and therefore, even now works all things for the good of those who not only do, but also those who will love Him.
Perhaps there were many unsaved who were turned away, God preparing their path and blessing their tardiness and thus absence by evoking within them a deep sorrow for what they had missed out on, a frustration that they were unable to participate, sadness, surprise and curiosity at the joy and sheer numbers of those excited to attend.
May hap God may use even these things to shepherd those wayward sheep into His fold, hinting of the rapture, encouraging them to come early, not to wait and put of acknowledgment of the truth any longer. To accept Christ into their life before they are left behind, or worse... as that day is coming the Lord will turn many away with the soul-chilling words: Be gone, for I never knew you, you workers of iniquity. May the whispering of that day turn the hearts of those who were turned away in disappointment and consternation, from their sin and to their Savior, Jesus Christ.
And while I take joy in the refreshment of the saints and see the need of their attendance, having someone there to “pay for the party” so the lost may come and hear the truth, I take to heart the greater need of those outside of Christ. In a city filled with half truths, misleading messages and false christs I hurt for those who were unable to receive a true revelation of Gods Word, Son and Savior and His abundant, forgiving and gracious love for them that night.
May we all consider such things. How much greater the joy sitting outside the arena: hearing, dancing and singing to the joy within, watching on TV, pod cast or listening on the radio; having been inside, yet given your seat to a confused and curious couple who didn't know about this whole “Jesus thing” but could be fellow kin in the Kingdom of God by nights end?
I challenge you, look into the eyes of the lost, talk to them, listen to their stories, their lives, see the fear and despairs of their hearts... they need Him. How small a thing it is to share with them: an opportunity, a little bread of life, a little living water, a little Word of God; how small a thing to sacrifice: a little time, a little comfort, a little embarrassment over a little foolishness. But how great a reward? A soul, a friend, a family member lost, now found; an encourager in your time of sorrow, a helper in your time of need, a son or daughter of God praying for you in the Fathers ear when to you He does not feel near.
How great a reward indeed? Of how much more do those who give receive?